Archive for January, 2009

I hate phones…

Posted in meow meow on January 27, 2009 by Mitsu

I think I might have posted this earlier, I’ve been sentenced to answering the information line. The inquiries are not the problem, as I have no issue with replying to e-mails and sending out info packs, but this is what bugs me : the 1800 line from hell.

I have an intense phobia of phone work, ever since I worked at the credit card call centre, and got yelled at on a daily basis. I had a nervous breakdown, and left that job. There was no way I could have done it anymore.  (This was in the beginning of 2007, prior to OMM being created.) 

Now, at the information line, no one yells at me as much (there are some who still do, but I have  no issue with reminding them that I’ll hang up if they keep that up), but it’s just the phone ringing that sends my heart racing, and I get a very uncomfortable feeling when I’m talking to someone. I wish I didn’t have to do it, and I must admit that there are many times where I just let it ring (when the boss isn’t near, or if his door is closed), because I’m too scared to pick up. I mean, you never know when, or what will set someone off. I know, I absolutely refuse to do callbacks, they can call back if it’s that important. I just can’t get the courage to do it, and the worst, is that when I address it at work, I get laughed at, or not taken seriously. I’m a good worker, just get me off the freaking phones!! I can’t take it anymore. This has caused me to become depressed again, I can’t sleep, I’m always stressed, really jumpy, and I’ve lost weight (which isn’t good, ass I’ve always been skinny to begin with). I’ve been on that line since the 18th of December, and I don’t know howw long I can put up with it. I’m just praying, to whatever may be out there, that I get selected from the pool, for a different position. Worst case scenario, If I don’t get another job by March, I’ll have to quit. A job is not worth becoming suicidal over, and I don’t want to go down that path again. Who knows, maybe this is why I can’t remember to post, as all I want to do, is to curl up in a defensive ball, and hide, far away from the phone…

Does anyone have any ways that I could get over this phobia, or at least make it less debilitating? Note that I can’t really afford any expensive shrinks or therapists. I’m just a lolwly contractor, being mistreated by the government.

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So….

Posted in meow meow on January 27, 2009 by Mitsu

Just trying to keep OMM alive, I think this blog might have outlived its usefulness. Anyways, I haven’t really been feeling up to posting lately, and I can never remember to do a post weekly. I’m going to keep trying, and right now, I’ll do a new post about something that pisses me off to no end.

2009 is here!

Posted in meow meow on January 7, 2009 by Mitsu

This is my first post of the year! I haven’t posted since I got back from Montreal, since I was spending most of my time playing MapleStory, seeing friends, and all that good holiday stuff.

Now I’m back at the grind, and just like 08, I have a lot of beefs and issues to rant about. It’s going to be great! An issue arose on NYE: the fact that I’m completely invisible at clubs. Some guy almost sat on me, wtf? He should have been able to see me, but I guess he couldn’t…at least I managed to shift out of the way before getting squished. That was the last thing to happen to me in 08…not an impressive year at all.

Next, I’ll have to post about my encounters with Texan guys…they really seem to like me, for some odd reason.

Well, that’s all for now. No resolutions, just keep living my life and keep oomphing along. 🙂